Life sucks as a teen

Have you ever just wanted to crawl into a hole and die? Because that is what i feel like doing right now.....

It's currently school break in malaysia and my little brother got the chickenpox a week ago....tbh i've  never gotten the chickenpox before but my cousins and brothers are totally over-reacting about it. I'm so over it, it's just the chickenpox....it's not like he's got something incurable.

Just because my mother is in mecca for hajj to look after him that does not mean he's invalid. God..... these people are even more dramatic than i am.... and i was the lead role for my school's drama (even though we did not win) that totally counts.

Wait......now i see where i get it from! Silly me.. i should have known....

And now after all the chores i do at home.....after i do the laundry, water the plants, vacuum the house....ya'll get it right? All i want is one day( not even one full day...it was actually 3 hours) to go ice skating....and she says no. NO??? Woman i have been cooped up at home for three weeks....i think i'm going slightly crazy.

I miss my old friends and i haven't seen them for a whole year.......that is like 10 years in jasmin time........

And as if she cant make this anymore worse than it has to be......she says to study? For a whole week when my friends are going out and having fun? Wow i'm really feeling the love mom...... it's like she doesn't even know me....... which is true because the only time she talks to me is to ask about my grades and the students that she likes....if i even talk to her about class the only thing she brings up is if i actually learnt anything in class......which was exactly what i was talking about......so you can see that i obviously feel the love guys......she doesn't react whenever i say anything.....and old people wonder why the teenagers in this day and age are depressed.....YOU DON'T LISTEN.........i feel like there is a big black hole in my heart that is growing bigger as the days go on.......

And i will admit that i answered her a bit rudely and to be fair i said sorry after i finished crying for 3 whole hours about how unfair life is......then she starts going on and on about how i was supposed to be more mature and shit.........um.....i'm a teen in the 21st century......i wouldn't be so surprised.

I feel like 21st century cinderella but instead of a stepmother mine is my real mom....

Xoxo,
JasSy.

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